Necessity & Purpose

One can be the necklace that craves for a missing piece of diamond in its thread.

One can also be the diamond that makes the already beautiful necklace a little more complete.

I would rather be the dark, ugly coal whose presence is vital for a mud stove to make it achieve it's noble purpose.

Disoriented

I dont know...

Where lines straighten

And where lines bend,

Where things start

And where things end?

Will lights flash

Or will beams fade,

Do I have the guts

Or am I losing - skeptical & afraid?

What destiny holds

And what will I get

Whether I'll be happy

Or will I regret?

How will I succeed

Or what will fail,

Is it rough waters

Or a smooth sail?

Whether to climb up

Should I descend?

Do I carve my path

Or should I follow the trend?

Who is my foe

Who to trust as friend?

Also, if I bid them this moment

Will I get to see them again?

Its dark out in love, as well

And I cant see a thing

Is future a reality

Or is it just my dreams?

Stuck in a perpetual loop

And in middle of nowhere

Eyes look out

Mind rambles

Searching answers 

Here & there.

Within all my confusions

And all the imaginations

Some visible dreams

And some hallucinations

I pull some courage

And gather my strength

I push myself forward

Ready to take every challenge.

But as time moves far

And the world moves ahead,

Me and my thoughts - disoriented in Love,

Remain confined to my bed.

- Gaurav Satle (2010)

No Longer Present

When you, once deeply in love,
Are all by yourself,
And have, besides you, your past

Along with some old memories
And a few songs
That had then become your ballads...

And when you,come across someone,
Equally disoriented in their Lost love,
Sharing their similar past experiences
With You,

And when you realise they had lived
Those moments with the same Intensity
And a purposeful sense
Of staying rooted to their adored loss,

It reminds you of yours,
It shakes you from within,
And you start re-living
Your extinct past again
Together with their recent past

The sharing of the flow of emotions
Becomes a complete, rounded conversation.
You witness a resonating echo
Of voices of your heart from theirs
Without having uttered A Word!

And when you discover,
In those conversations,
A possible future
And discovery of reinvention of yourself,
You realise
Together...

That You still have some life left within you,
And it is beautiful, probably more,
Than your rich past.

The absence of your past
Is fading and doesn't matter.
The presence of your future
Is blurred but felt very strongly.

You re-live a dream
And a beautiful one at that,
Although both - the past & future,
Are no longer present.

#ASF #GSAT

I Want to Go

I want to go to a dream world,
where instincts take over
and impulse soars high.
Where thoughts are unrestricted
and limitations are nowhere in mind.

with no cellphone to disturb
and no watch to show time,
Where there is no direction
to restrict where i go,
and no part of my body is mine.

Where the sun shows the light
and the stars tell me that its night
Where the moon cools the mood around.
I shouldn't know how long it has been;
& nothing shows the time.

where the insects talk
the trees listen
and the every bird sings a song
to let me know I am fine.

With no one to say a 'Hi!'
So no chance of bidding 'Goodbye'
I know my dreams will be my own
& there will be no secrets to hide.

Where I don't have to anywhere to travel
No journey to begin so no journey to end
Where no one will be dependent on me
And no desires to pend

Where the world around shows what colours can be
and every visual brings delight!
Where only the darkness brings out the blacks
and only a flower shows whats the white!

Where the stream teaches how to play
and the rain shows how to enjoy;
where the placid lake shows me how to lye
And the falling leaves exemplify how to die...



drafted nearly 4 years ago

Re-Appear

Each time you appear in my thoughts,

my mind sees you floating away

into nothingness,

slowly and steadily

gradually but surely

just like a cloud in the sky...

until the time there is nothing left in my mind

until the time you re-appear in my mind

and fill it once more!

Clairvoyance

When I have the camera in my hands
I get transformed.
I get possessed.
By an energy that seems to be endless.
The camera then becomes the extension of my body,
the lens an extension of my eyes.

I become Clairvoyant.

For me, writing is praying in solitude

Stop now for 1 min. Say a silent prayer of thanks for you life. Pain will pass. Joy will remain.

To be faithful to someone, first be faithful to yourself.

You can't avoid pain, but when you write it down, you will feel better. Try this.

I write to empty my mind and to fill my heart.

You may not know what you want, but you must know what you DON'T want in life.

If you wait for inspiration, you're not an artist, but a waiter.

Live with no regrets and love with no excuses.

Dreams cannot be tamed. Dreamers cannot be ruled.

If we are in love, we are making love all the time, even when we are not.

Be the best and get prepared to be attacked by mediocres.

When you say “yes” to others, make sure you are not saying “no” to yourself.

The beauty of truth: whether it is bad or good, it is liberating.

Never save the best for later. You don't know what tomorrow holds.

If it is still in your heart, it is worth the fight (even if you lose...)

My Camera and Me

When I have the camera in my hands I get transformed. I get possessed.
By an energy that seems to be endless.
The camera then becomes the extension of my body, lens an extension of my eyes.
My actions become divine...

I still see no God.
May be I become one. I would do no wrong.

A Dig at You - thanks to Hermann Hesse

Acc to Hermann Hesse, a novelist, whenever you try to express anything, it is only half-said and from listener's point of view, it is only half understood.

An analogy to that statement can be drawn about writing and reading and applying maths to that analogy can lead to some funny conclusions.

1. What the novelist implies is that only 25% of what you want to express is understood... that is if the listener is listening attentively!

2. Now on the same lines, if you have fully understood whats written out here, this Hermann Hesse is wrong.

3. If you understand more than 50% of whats written then you and me are brilliant!!!

4. If you understand less than 50% and more than 25%, you can still look in the mirror with one eye. ;)

5. If you understand less than 25%, it high time you figure out yourself! :P

Results - Challenge 1

21 days into this and my success rate was 67%
The 33% consists of the days with super tiredness when I dozed off into sleep unplanned, a couple of nights when ppl being at home didn't make it possible.
Here are the positives I can draw from it.
1. I got over the mental block that one can't sleep sound without the soft comfort of the bed.
2. Its eco-friendly. With sleeping on the floor came abstinence of using the AC. A small reduction in the usage of AC brings down unnecessary usage of electricity increases my eco-friendly quotient. If not much then at my level I can do atleast this for mother earth.
3. A passing comment on saving money with a reduction in the electricity bill. I may have otherwise switched on the AC a couple if times. It needs to be highlighted that the coldness of the floor feels more pleasant than the chill of the ACs.
4. It has taken me closer to the non-materialistic simplistic life that i wish to live. That brings immense content and inner-peace alongwith.
5. More than anything else, it has given me a self-belief of embracing bigger and meaningful challenges that may be knocking.

So sleeping on the floor may sound weird and trivial but its a significant step in the intent to challenge myself and bring me out of my comfort zone.

if you

if you argue i may argue too
if you quarrel, i may lose my temper
if you dont talk, i may stay silent,
but if you just smile, why will i not smile back?
rather why will i not smile at you anyways. :)

Lessons from A Fruit

I wish to be the fruit that falls off detaching itself from the parent tree. When it falls off, it doesnt think that it's leaving it's home behind. That home was never his...

It's home belongs to where it plants its seed. It eventually grows into a new tree and possibly the source of many more.
In the process of planting its own seed, it allows itself to be fully consumed with no second thoughts. The detachment from its parent tree becomes final.

I want to be exactly like that.
A giver rather than a getter.
A hope for the better.
A source rather than an end.

Lessons from a Leaf

I wish to be the leaf that falls off and flows along-with the river.
It doesn't know where its heading towards.
It doesn't even know whether it will get bruised out or remain healthy and for how long.
All it knows is to simply flow along the water to wherever the current takes it.
If the river dumps it at the banks, it gives itself to the sun and in the process gets worn out or gets dried up.
If the river takes it along the water stream, it gets torn apart and dissolves itself in water.
Whether it bears the brunt of the sun or the water, it gives itself completely to the water or the soil, it gives itself completely for the cause of a new life!

I want to be exactly like that.
A giver rather than a getter.
A hope for the better.
A source rather than an end.

Challenge # 1

Yesterday night I challenged myself. Had to try sleeping on the floor. Did it. Weird, isn't it? Had a good sound sleep though. No different in terms of quality than sleeping on a comfortable bed with the AC on.

If some people can do it - be it out of compulsion or otherwise - why can't I?

However the real challenge will be to do it regularly? I will give it a shot though. Had read somewhere that it takes nearly 21 days to cultivate a habit. Sleeping 21 days on the floor should not be tough. Lets see.

I will get back on this after 21 days. Curious to know if I pass this test.

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Hiding & Seeking

If you keep on hiding yourself from reality,
you will be unsuccessful in doing that bit.

One cant stay hidden for ever.
You will soon be found, sooner or later.

Then you will be left SEEKING for all that is HIDDEN...
which is NOTHING.

I am Accountable

I am answerable to my conscience, my morals, roots righteousness and myself.

People also have the right to be individualistic, have their own opinions and decisions on the basis of their perceptions.

Leaving the rest to them and the rest to destiny...

People

First they discover God, then they invent rituals;
and then they call themselves spiritual.

Self-Awareness

If God watches, walls listen,
then the sub-conscious surely registers.

Nothing really goes unnoticed.

Enlightened is the one who is aware of one's sub-conscious!

Chase...

I am on a prowl.

I walk and walk, and keep on walking.
My eyes - as restless as ever - gazing around, scan every frame it can see.

It's night, it's dark, it's scary.
There is no living thing visible. Not even a hint of any movement. The only visible movement is of me and my shadows.

There is absolute silence.
Even the wind seems to have gone for sleep and everything else appears to be in deep slumber.

Time as they say seems to be paused.
My feet keep on moving ahead as I march ahead. However its my eyes that do the hardest bit of work. Constantly searching and looking...

A restless, determined, turbulent, anxious, unpreturbed, impatient, violent storm intensifies within me.
Everything outside seems to be like the lull - not before - but after the storm.